Mid-wife crisis???

I am breaking up my digiscrap chat to ramble. I havent had family discussions for a wee while now, and I need to.

I will preface by stating, I love my family dearly, and my husband, I couldnt imagine life without him.

But bloody hell, he drives me insane at times. And surely I am not the only wife on the planet that feels the same way!?

My full time job is wife and mother, I dont get paid for my job, and I dont get thanks for my job, and yes, being a wife and mother is a thankless job I understand it. You know, today I was talking with a mother at my sons playgroup and she said to me 'I dont get any thanks for what I do as a mother, but I wouldnt have it any way'

You have got to be fricking kidding me right!!

Does every mother really feel like this, or is it just me who thinks, you know what, some sort of appreciation would be great, even a cup a tea would be nice!!

Another mother said to me, 'Oh, I dont mind, my husband works long hours and he needs time to unwind, which I usually let him do while I bathe the kids'

By this point, you literally needed a fork lift to scrape my chin off the floor.

Dammit, my husband works 12-14hr days, he goes into his office, his PA makes him coffee when he wants it, he shouts at his staff, sits in meetings, shouts more at staff the negotiates with them.
And he gets PAID to do it! AND he gets to have normal conversations with adults, AND, he doesnt have to go through the military procession of rounding up a hormonal 5yr old daughter who has to have matching pants and socks (god forbid you if they are not available!!) and a 3yr old who thinks getting dressed in the morning is actually a wrestling game. Dont even get me started on washing faces and brushing teeth.

Before 9am, I have had a physical workout, then there is the housework, start vacuuming and dusting downstairs, clean downstairs toilet (Yes I clean my bathrooms every day, I am a bit anal ((s'cuse the pun)) about my bathrooms!!), Hike mr dyson upstairs, vacuum upstairs clean upstairs bathrooms. Come downstairs to discover that my 3yr old son has tipped the dogs water bowl and raided the candy jar, start cleaning the kitchen AGAIN!!

At 11am I find time to empty the dishwasher from last night, and fill it up with breakfast dishes, start organising lunch, fight with son on getting him to eat, playgroup, shopping, school pick up, playgroup pick

Start dinner, yadda yadda yadda, you know the drill

Basically my routine is often similar every day, 7 days a week, 352 days a year, 24/7 its non stop. The same as any other mother.

By 8pm I can be knackered, kids are in bed, husband cuddles up to you on the couch with the classic statement 'I need attention' WTF!!!!

Hence why I could be going through what I labelled the Mid-wife crisis. Sometimes, I get resentful of the fact that my husband goes out to work, he is away from the madness of the daily runnings of my home. I am resentful at the times he asks 'Whats wrong with your face' When I look like I have just got out of bed at 7pm because I havent had time to brush my hair and yes, by that time I can be a stroppy mare. I am resentful of the fact that when I get my house looking like a showhome that husband will come home, take of his boat sized boots and leaves them right slap bang in the middle of house hold traffic, at which I trip over them, and they are going to kill me one day, and what will he do when he comes back from the mortury after killing his wife. He will take off his boat sized boots no doubt and leave them in the middle of the household traffic.

And yes, there have been times where I have thought, I am leaving, on my own, we shall see how he would cope. And you know what, I know I will never leave him! For some insane reason, I love him too much to do that!

Would I have it any other way? Of course I would, I would love a cleaner in, maybe a babysitter once a week so I can have some me time. Will it happen?? I doubt it.

At the end of the day, I hate my life as wife and mother.


But at the same time


I do actually love it!